Because many of you are just finding this blog, I wanted to make it easy for you to get to the basic discussions of the phenomenon, my evolving hypothesis, and the solutions that may help.
I have called these things we have by a lot of names, most precisely, “auditory memory loops” (AMLs) because that best describes them. We are replaying memories of sounds, even though we don’t necessarily need to have heard the sounds with our ears. I’ve gotten words and names stuck in my head that I only “sounded out” in my head.
But rather than repeat everything here, I will refer you to key links from my archives.
The first place I’d send you is to the archives for March of 2010. At least read the Original Broken Record Syndrome posts parts 1 and 2. You may also be interested in the Party Going on in Your Head post. https://brokenrecordsyndrome.wordpress.com/2010/03/
The other key post would be from March 2011, A New Twist in the Mystery. In this post I go into great detail about how I “cured” my AMLs by mimicking a woman’s normal hormone cycle (my AMLs started at menopause) with a very specific regimen of replacement hormones. https://brokenrecordsyndrome.wordpress.com/2011/03/ Obviously, this may not be as relevant to the men among us, but even then I’d be curious to know what your hormone ratios are. Perhaps there is a hormonal component for all of us.
These are the most important posts. But I encourage you to go back through all the archives and read the earlier posts.
My basic hypothesis has focused around the role of the stress hormone cortisol in provoking or enhancing this phenomenon. And over the years, that hypothesis has broadened. So far, none of our cases has proven inconsistent with the cortisol hypothesis, though there is clearly much more to it than just cortisol.
It seems that a common connecting thread among some AML sufferers is some form of insulin resistance condition or symptoms that suggest insulin resistance. (Excess cortisol can cause insulin resistance.) I have just found articles about a natural substance, inositol) that has been used successfully both to increase/restore normal insulin sensitivity and to reduce the symptoms of obsessive compulsive disorder OCD). I believe the connection is no coincidence. And I will write about it as soon as I have gathered enough information.
One theme that recurs in many of my posts is the urgent desire to find researchers who are both qualified and equipped to study this phenomenon. I firmly believe that if we can get someone to chart our bloodwork/chemistry and to look at our brains using a sophisticated tool such as a functional MRI (fMRI) or SPECT scan, they will not only find solutions to our problems, they may solve the mystery of obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) in general.
I appear to be the only one among us who can turn the AMLs on and off (using natural hormones and cortisol suppressants). There are also identical twin boys, one of whom has the AMLs, the other doesn’t. (As it turns out, the one who has AMLs also exhibited signs of insulin resistance. ) The point is that if someone could study me when the AMLs are on and off, and could identify key differences in these two boys, we might gain significant insights into why this happens and how to stop it. Then perhaps we could suggests tests that your doctors could perform to tell us what we sufferers all have in common.
This post is to welcome you to this site, to let you know you are not alone, and to assure you that there is hope. I am so sorry we had to meet this way, but I am happy to help you in any way I can.