This is not good news for one of our most troubled sufferers. A young woman in her late 20s, whom I will call “X,” has struggled with the stuck music approximately since the birth of her second child. Now a distressing new symptom has popped up.
Over the years I have known her through our correspondence, I have seen her mental capacity decline because of the incessant songs playing in her head and the lack of sleep this causes. She has been to numerous doctors, none of whom have the first clue as to how to treat this phenomenon.
We did determine (through a home saliva test) that her cortisol levels were elevated. But she cannot take the Relora that can help lower cortisol because it made her too groggy. She is apparently hypersensitive to all substances.
Now she has developed a symptom that clearly seems to be a form of obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD). Most neurologists consider the stuck music (also called “ear worms,” “broken record syndrome,” “auditory memory loops/AMLs,” or “musical hallucinations”) to be a form of OCD.
They may be right, though I have been able to control mine by manipulating my hormone replacement therapy, which suggests that it may be important to find out what impact hormone levels have on OCD in general.
The symptom that X has now developed involves the compulsion to breathe into her hand to smell her breath. I haven’t heard of any other AML sufferers developing additional OCD symptoms but I suspect it is quite possible and they may simply have not made the connection or bothered to mention them.
If any of you have more traditional obsessions or compulsions in conjunction with your stuck music/AMLs, let us know.
And if you’ve tried drugs (or any other solutions) for OCD and have found relief, please share with us so that perhaps people like X can find some peace.
For me, the holidays have always been torturous because of all the music played everywhere you go. Thanks to my new hormone regimen started around this time last year, this is the first year in 12 that I haven’t been plagued with the holiday music being stuck in my head. I earnestly wish the same peace for all of you in the new year.
Happy holidays to you all!